My head's not a great place to be stuck in.
Here I am fulfilling a childish dream through an adult ambition.
2019 is another Pandora's box we open tonight, so let's breathe easy before facing whatever's inside.
When I had the ice cream I couldn't help thinking, this ice cream might be worth living for.
At least I am not keeping a countdown anymore.
I might not be the daughter of the year, but I still do love my Mum very much.
I am always in two states, either too determined or not at all. I have never been one to dwindle on the middle ground. I either feel too much or nothing at all and it's too late for me to change.
Every little girl carries the burden of her womanhood along with her on this journey of life. She only realises the power, and the strength of the same womanhood much later.
That's the beauty of life that no matter how you are, no matter how miserable or excited it passes you unaware, never slowing down. But it can feel like it is slowing down. Thought it is an illusion, it's comforting.
I carry my demons on my back. It weighs me down when I should be standing up. And it's ok for a while. It's really alright. I can't run before I learn to walk.